In the midst of it all!

Growing up I had many songs that I loved but it was one song that I always played on my way to church that made me cry every time I heard it. The song was "In The Midst Of It All" by Yolanda Adams. I think I cry because I've been through so much but some way some how I'm still here. I had a revelation today that made me just stop and think. Right now my plate is running over. Between finances, the kids, work and school I'm stretched thin. However, the one thing that in my mind would solve it all is money overflowing abundantly. Honestly that would solve about 95% of most of our problems but then there is still that other 5% and even though 5% is so small it really is so big. That 5% is the key to our happiness because money only makes you to be content with life because with enough or more than enough cash you can basically do as you please and not have to rob Peter to pay Paul. So now it's time to put on your thinking cap. What is your 5%? Money can buy you the house, car, clothes etc but what is it that it can't buy? Many of you may say love but I beg to differ. Reason being is because ladies when that man comes along that buys you everything and takes care of you, he may not have been your first pick but because he has done all these things and continues to do so you eventually fall in love. So basically he brought your love! Some of you may say that money can't buy you happiness.....wrong!!! That person that grew up struggling through life who never had money to do anything once they got money their whole world changed and life itself became something worth living for. I would like for you to share your thoughts with me on what your 5% is. If you tell me yours I'll tell you mine!

Family

Last week I received a text and in that text it defined what family is and what a strong family builds verses a weak family. I must admit I'm apart of the weak. Now when I say weak my term is used as it being one that is clearly divided in some instances I would even go so far as saying dysfunctional. Growing up I always heard a family that prays together stays together but funny we only pray together when its at funeral. Just today I read one of my cousins facebook statuses and her baby sister died. They weren't all that close but they were still blood. My point that I'm getting around to is why is it that death is only thing that brings a family close? We should treasure the time that we share here on earth with one another so therefore when it comes time to say goodbye we will have no regrets. I challenge you all to bring your family close to one another if you aren't already close. Plan family gatherings but one thing that I ask of you is that you never give up!

Seeking Love

Have you ever found yourself looking for love in all the wrong places? I think we all have. Right now I'm in a place where I'm tired of searching but rather yet waiting on Mr Right. I often wonder is he ever gonna find me. Quite frankly I am so tired of all these lames. What do you think is the perfect man/woman? What are the qualities that one should or should not portray? A major turn off is someone that is unemployed and the next is the one that the first thing they say is "So when can I come see you?" Can you say never????? I find myself set in my ways now but I still get lonely at times but I don't want a man in my life for convenience but rather for true love. Someone that knows how to treat a lady by not only winding and dining but being that listening ear, that best friend and that provider. I was raised to be independent but I think my major issue is letting a man be a man. I'm not gonna throw in the towel just yet cause I'm holding on to the ounce of faith that I have that he is out there somewhere.

Mother's Day

Just wanted to check in and wish you all a Happy Mother's Day! It's been a very sad day for me. I pray that you all enjoy your day!

A Game of Spades

Everyone that knows me knows that I love to play cards. My momma hosted card parties from Thursday through Saturday and sometimes Sunday if Monday was a holiday. The one thing she taught me was how to play to win. You never know what the other person has in their hand but if you don't take a chance then you could lose. So I'm learning that life is just like that game. If I never take a chance then most likely I will lose. I know that not everything I will win at but nothing beats a failure than a try. I'm so sick of I can't so now my thoughts are when. When will I purchase my home? When will II Chance have a building and a staff that will assist in making my dreams of owning my own business come true? When will my husband come along to complete my family? When will I be able to drive a new not used car off the lot? When will I be able to go check my bank acct and see more than one comma? Some of you have the same thoughts or may have accomplished some of the things that I want to but you want more. As long as we limit ourselves to what we can and can't do we will never get anywhere. They say the sky is the limit but from what I hear there are footprints on the moon!

Almost Gave In!

Today was a day of one disappointment after another. I guess you can say it was a test. I been around here acting like my life so peaches and creams and that can't nothing get me down. Well today slapped me with all it's mite! First the position I wanted to post out for does not hire for temps. Then just as I thought things were looking up the donor calls and says he gets fired so I can say forget about child support for a while. Next I had to damn near my 3 year old for crying cause I say she can't have a cheeseburger just to get pulled over 5 minutes later by the police for my brake lights.  At that point I was like what the hell??? Oh but it didn't stop there. I go to take a walk around the track and the other baby daddy fiance or whatever she want to be called there staring. Get home to my daughter ruining my dinner that all she had to do was watch over and to top it all off my baby girl think she Tarzan and swing on my sofa and missed her landing just to hit her head on the ground with a thud!!! Now how many of you have had a day like that? Yeah I must admit it has me undoubtedly irked but I'm about to go to my comfort zone and let the tears flow and leave them right there. I have to get it out and venting only makes me even more mad. Crying is my outlet and prayer is my redeemer. So yes I almost gave in today but instead of giving in and starting to hold my head down I'm going to give it up to God and still walk with my head held high!

The Better Person

Have you ever endured a constant feud with a so called friend? Ever felt like everything was a competition with you and that person? Well I've been there and done that but I now see that I win in every aspect. I win today because I finally realized what's the purpose! Regardless of what I have or don't have I don't have to put up a front for no one. At night if I cry myself to sleep it's because I'm thinking about my mother not because of anything else. The people that I've gone back and forth with really are unhappy and there's no words that need to be said to prove it. Tonight's blog won't take up much of your time but then again it will. Take time out now to look at your situation like the one mentioned with a person and you tell me who is the winner.

Blessed By The Best

Sometimes we just need a few moments of peace and quiet to reflect on our life. I was sitting here in my room alone and all of sudden my mind began to drift. I went back to about 2 and a half years ago when I lost my apartment, car, and job all within a 30 day time frame. That seemed like the lowest point of my life. I felt as though I was less than a mother and had lost all hope. I still continued to go to church and pray and pray and pray and finally things started to look up for me and my kids. I was blessed with my apartment and got a new job and my car got fixed. I've been holding on strong since then. Yes I have still had a few minor setbacks but I'm still holding on. I've lost a few friends along the way but I'm still holding on. Honestly I realize that they weren't friends just someone taking up space. My point I'm trying to make is that even when you don't see the sun shining through the clouds it's still there waiting for the clouds to move out of the way. Have faith, be strong and stay encouraged. Pay close attention to the ones you surround yourself with as those same people may be blocking your blessings. Now that I'm looking with my eyes wide open I see that I am blessed by the best. Blessed to have the true friends that I have, family that loves me, a decent job, reliable transportation, a roof over our heads and the desire to want more out of life.